Brainlick

There's no time anymore.  no time to go take a little ride out a ways to go and pick up games. not since GameStop came in.  Why go out to Calpella when ./...  I hear this from Parents at the GameStop.... "Oh just hurry up and pick something, or get what you're getting ... we need to go to WalMart, or Verizon, or Starbucks... ".   which are conveniently located within a couple blocks of GameStop. No More stopping for coffee  on the way out to go pick up a Gameboy Cartridge. No more stopping by what used to be the old arcade and Laundry to drop a quarter in an old but still kicking Pac Man machine.  I can hear the sound in my head, and see the worn overlay under the joystick.  Traveling out to Werner's House of Games was a nice little ...  a trip.  a dedicated break.  It was the smile on his face when i saw him every time, and the joy in his voice and his laughter and our joking.  Sometimes I'd go out th...

i am selfish.  i feel so guilty re: werner's passing.  His health wasn't doing all that good and he asked me for my help to put up flyers to advertise his little shop. I didn't do it.  i got wasted becasue of c.  i didn't tell my fereinds to stop by on our way through there enough. i feel so awful i can not explain.  my due dilligence in being an asshole and a prick are beyond heavy.  i hate my self right now.

is the gaming industry dead? i dunno. to me it is.  my mentor and friend, Werner Deinemer, from Calpella CA passed away on 9/26.  He ran Werner's House of Games.  He was smart, ultra cool, played poker and was very kind to his customers.  I was his customer for 17 - 20 some years, i guess, can't remember....  so long.  I feel an unfathomable level of guilt in regards to his passing.  I was supposed to be putting up flyers and helping his little shop stay afloat by buying more stuff and getting his web presence up.  My girl of 11 years leaves on July 21, a month from our anniversary and start of 12h yr together.  Heavy depression ensues.  Heavy drinking, skirt chasing and Dwarf Fortress.  Lost / fucked off a chance at a job.  More depression.  more bad.  more dorf.  after basically locking myself away from the world.  No Phone to check on people, no going out to talk to him, no forcing my friends to stop b...

My heart is in a deep state of disbelief, shock,  and other yucky emotions.  guilt. My friend Werner Deinemer (not sure of spelling) passed away on 9/26.   had i not been reeling from nearly dying on the coast on 9/21 i might have been able to see him.  i hate myself for just sitting around  getting drunk and playing dwarf fortress  instead of putting out flyers for his little shop.  that little shop that i had gone to for about 20 years or so.   when C left in July it created a whole in my heart that i can not explain.  i need to help to get my friend buried.  i hate my self.  i feel so bad,.  i feel  so low right now. the bringing in of GameStop brought good deals into the area, but it shut down Werner's shop hard.  He was forced over the last year or so  to even sell knives and crossbow devices to make ends meet out in Calpella.  I have no car and going on the bus isn't that easy, as pe...