Brainlick

the late 70's and early 80s hard rock that was once affectionately called punk

don't do stuff to satisfy the status quo, do what makes you happy right there in that moment.  let the good things  come to you.

Dinner was chicken and a burger, learning how to be okay, just in my skin, so    im not distracted by external shit, no noise from people, no need to bounce   about from bumper to bumper like a pinball, no need to hop on the green beast,   in search of the unobtainable at the time being.  no need to hunt, no need to get   external power from people right now, no need for the pulse to match up  with   someone, lock eyes like black lazers and screw all night watching Fear and   Loathing and Felix the Cat, while listening to psychedlic rock and Aleister   Crowley on youtube.   Let them come to me, force not thyne presence.    Lucifer give me hope.   Jesus forgive me for my wants, jealousy, desires, greed, and sins.

it's here. moving. slow like the shadow of a cloud on an october day. perpetual, yet variable, no target until the target is hit. chaos in its purest of forms. yet filthy as "sin".

OKAY, big media, we know you need to sell records, video time, film and magazines, as well as have a current attempt to exist in the realm of the new media and the internet. We also know that the government cannot do a thing about the current structure unless drastic infrastructure changes occur. 1.  the Lobbyists Work for the Label 2.  The Lobbyists with the most money mean the most to the politicians.  thereby reducing the flow of allowed media presence to smaller media and alternative media entities and outlets who wish to compete in their own capacity, without having to either sell out or change to be accepeted my the mass media corporations and entities. 3,  A possibility   for these entities is a combination of ON TARGET brick and mortar ad campain and internet presence. 4.  Legalize Marijuana. Opened minds force new art and different types of media, from all sources, mainstream, underground and other modes. 5. my knee hurts.

i was born in 76.  the 90's was the basic inside the box style thinking's period when it was supposed to all end.  No more Saturday Morning, no more Arcades.  The teenage years went and passed like a slow autumn day, one that one wishes to remember forever.  I wen from being 13 in January of 1990 to 14 in april....  I watched an industry build, and fall apart, went from 1,000 plus dollars a day sometimes to being on disability at present.  I used to be a programmer before web design got so damn simple.  This is, of course in the days of Amiga and alternate platforms that were graphics heavy and had mostly Graphical user Interfaces.  The goal of the people at Microsoft was to deal a blow directly to Apple and the origial Mac and Apple 2 userbase, as well as the userbases of the Amiga and Atari home computers in the United States

Sad that: My love of comics dissapated after time. BUT: I feel it creeping around the corner, ready to pop out at any second. Sad that: I spent too much time bitching about $#!T instead of doing it. BUT: Am glad I'm alive and have a chance to do the things that i enjoy and stopped putting em off. Yesterday and the day before i spent about 8 or 9 hours playing Dragon Warrior 3 and 4. Feels awesome. Starting 3 again. I like it, I like having a group ready to go. I have to read up more on this stuff. Toriyama's (hope i got that right) a genius. MY LOVE and heart for role playing games is more or less getting back into simple get-out-and-do-it-style gaming, like Dragon Quest/ Dragon Warrior, where it's just get out and freaking grind, unlike in the new final Fantasies which is like a soap opera. I love the fact that after all that cloud of anger that I went through, that I can fire up that emu, and wow, actually get excited and enjoy myself. The Fun is back.

55mph notes OR:  A Primer or Daybook of a Mess - OR:  Why Don't I read this Book: BY OLIVER C. MATTSON COPYRIGHT  2009 aka Alexander Maxim (legend:  --- page break) Shattered Dreams can occur at the most random of moments, Habits tend to make these random moments occur at the most peculiar of times. --- Always if possible, recruit a co pilot, or wing-person that has your best wishes in mind. --- The person that you meet on the Internet may not be the same person you meet in real life. --- Try hard to eat some food and be well rested and happy before going to a party, or  out to bars.  Jealousy can rear its ugly head at any moment when one isn't in the right head-space. --- If you feel that you need to do something differently, in order to make your life better, find it yourself and go their with the direction that you put into it yourself, sometimes one needs to make one's own compass. --- Read, Write, draw, sing, compose, perform, move, d

my children's story (that i'm storyboarding) from 99. Questions for the Sky By Oliver C. Mattson A boy walked from his home to the top of a tall hill, above him in the sky was a light rain. It fell warm and fell still. the sky was covered with bright gray. Behind all the clouds was the Sun who had not gone away, But was hiding behind a blanket today, it needed a nap before it could come out to play, so he didn't ask the Sun any questions that day. But the boy asked the wind, "Wind, why do you blow"" and the wind replied, "Because I push the air around from here over to there, I bring around the clouds to places that need help with rain. I keep the air fresh. so all the people don't complain. I keep pollen and seeds moving that are so small, people can't see.  So that the world will be full of plants, flowers and trees.  I help water, and fishes and streams some days I'm here, and some days I'm there. I have to keep moving so tha