Brainlick

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dontcha tell me i ain't got no balls. i'm off the rails and bouncing off the walls.

dear allen. thanks for the reply, man. I may be in clearlake (i live here now, but need to move due to recent violence and robbery) some wendesday unit. i have no clue when i'll be able to, i wish to leave. I need to find a place for myself and my family to be that is not in this terrible town, not Nice, Lucerene, Upper Lake . We're looking like Blue Lakes or East grrr, people in this town, and area, really don't like me. if you bled as much as i bled, you'd understand. I fear, i guess, for my life, who is to blame but myself for the foolish beast like behavior that I've permitted myself to doing. Following the old masters to a "T" isn't the best way of living life. Copy not Crowley , Thrust thyself not that much into Thompson, Lament not heavily for LaVey. I'm telling you the truth right now because it's my right as an American to exercise my freedom of speech , and with the broadcasting I've seen on your show, i know you know that...

They just let people have up to like 5 grams of pot on them in Mexico. As well as like, some amount of cocaine. Holy Shit. guess who's economy is about to get REALLY stimulated. Do it here in America. Except NOT the Coke. And Not the Speed, for CRYING out fucking LOUD. NOT the Speed. Dear god that's all we need is the majority of the fucking country awake for days and days on end watching shapes crawl up outta the carpet drinking 4 cases of beer at 6 in the morning because everyone in your "crew", has been listening to the same fucking Marylin Manson album for 2 days all the way through, and they won't let you play another album, because they feel that the rush gets cleaner every time the buildup to the hidden track (even though it takes like 1/2 hour of silence), goes through, and thereby protects them from the SUNSHINE. Fuck that. Gimme my Black Flag and chest pain inducing coffee at 3:00am waiting for the sun to rise over new york and freaking out 'c...

who's to say who's what, and what's who, though, here? This place reminds me more and more every day of an Altered State, or a bad trip, Alice's looking glass... with lines of bathtub speed, low quality marijuana ash, and green beer spills strewn across its pitted, scratched, and tainted surface. Look not into it, its reflection is not to be trusted, question people around you, maybe even our own selves.

What the hell are we supposed to do, Police All the other countries in the world, wipe their asses after the go to the bathroom and and bring them peace while the people in the Homeland here die because of Cartel, Mafia, and Gang related and or enforced Violence due to our Old and Obsolete Government, whose backwards modes of thought continue to deny the fact that we are addicted to mind altering substances and therefore continue to LET real terrorists, with AMERICAN NAMES let blood flow onto the pavements, front porches and in the homes, OF AMERICA, and into the wallets and coffers of POLICE, POLITICIANS, and LOBBYISTS who care more about making hush money, then caring about the People. The quality of Marijuana in Lake County is severely Below Par. It takes me about 100 plus dollars worth of the garbage around here to be able to relax my back and hips and headaches as a 40 sack or so would in the emerald triangle. It's being brought in from foreign borders, and from [;aces that I ...

living here.... i dunno.... i don't want to get slamming on the bottle when i get better from this last beating, but i fear that i may. i just want my card so i can smoke weed and be cool, it's a lot better off that way for every one, including me. I'm saving my money and everything and doing what i can as soon as i start getting some cash again. Even if I don't get my check on the 22nd, i will try to hold on to what i can, so i can get ahead. I will not try to sit here and give away everything that i can to make these people around me and in my life happy. They have taken more than they need from me, and now they need to do stuff for them selves. Just like I need to preserve me, My art, and my dreams.

Plant not the seeds of jealousy and greed and gluttony and in your mind's yard, heaven knows what may come up from that ground.

no one can stop it now. the gates have been gently blown open by a wind that can't even be seen. the beast is within and without. i wish that i had not crossed those lines, that i had not did the things that i did. to not be in this skin, and so close to where i am. prevent me from behaving like an ass, o Lord. Please forgive me. close to the fire i need not be. fanning far larger flames beyond my reckoning, i have dabbled and crossed lines that should not be AT ALL.

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this place is the pits. if your kids a nerd and you want them to die, move the fuck over here. if you want to be around the most devoid intellectual area on the planet. Get over here. If you want everyone you know to turn on you. get over here. or don't.

o leviathan, cradler of the sun. pulse me now the chaos and ablsoute of variable. pierce now the realit y and i see your face in the corner of mine eye. coveted one, let me know not your name but let me feel your presence. to those shores where water fears to fall, and sirens perpetual silence calls. let me see the spark. and the things that come out to shine in the darkest of dark. let me befreind you, for you were not forgiven by the absolute. you, hate itself, and death, are long not needed here. You shall sail to seas of wonder, and you shall pay no cost. I'll pay your fare myself to get rid of anger and holocaust. "Let hate itself slide off you, Hate", I've told you, "you can go", but then you bark right back at me, and rear your head again, repetitious, yes, we know. See, my friend, we know one another, oh how years and time have passed. I wish you not to trouble you, sir, but i really must try to ask. Is it that you can see right in my eyes and see th...

Rest in Peace, John Hughes, I will miss you. Your works were extraordinary, your words and production were top of the pile. Your films ROCKED. Spoke words for us that even if we were little when your stuff came out, we understood it, later on. I believe that now Jesus and you can get together and make a badass action flick filled with titties and explosions, maybe like you might have made had you had the chance. Your work has been great, and the stories you told were truly beautiful. I thank The Absolute Creator for bringing us such a person. Goodnight, sir. Class Dismissed.

I think that i've gone beyond the line. Pushed too far, excessed too much. Just messed up yet another friendship, and freaked out the neighborhood pretty bad. This is not funny anymore. I might die. The cartoon is getting towards the end. Getting green card. Fuck this underground bullshit, shitty underground weed is hurting me and the outer support structure that is necessary to run with therien is not necessarily the best for me. Rip into the weed as hard as i was hitting the bottle, i should. Once you've had yr life threatened and or arrested and shit from many many blacked out nights, you know there's something wrong. Can't quite figure out why the damn video machine isn't working like as well as it should. But okay. grumble, grumble.

weclome to whateverville, where we just plain don't care. the fires you'll have to put out yourselves. and dont' talk to us of the crime, you bitch about violence and robbers, all of the time. we're sick to death of you all asking, when can i be helped. we hear all your phone calls, toss all of your mailings. and try to ignore your yelps. the only thing here that means anything is two-faced-ness, heartlessness and greed. go ahead and take off to wherever, we have what we need. and if we sit and threaten you, and you don't give it to us quick. we'll drag you down, maybe put you in the ground, you could help grow the weeds. Our Society will never change it bux and looks come First! if you question us, you'll be in a pickle, we'll outsource our friend with the Sickle, death has a perpetual thirst. We cannot find any real reason for you to be here now. your education is too expensive for us to pay you, you have no real "worth", anymore to the commu...

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